It’s all gone!

It’s surprising to see how much two months of not blogging does to the established systems, patterns and habits in the blogger.

I used to automatically archive things that I spotted in the day to day life. Like, I was creating a mental note with everything worthy of writing. It was something that came more or less automatic, I never made actual lists. It was just something inside my head. But it worked.

It’s also completely gone.

I notice that I am procrastinating instead of writing. I take my phone, but instead of writing, I just mindlessly scroll through various feeds. No writing food on there today. Not for me.

I always compared writing to a muscle. You have to train it regularly, every day, to keep it up. Now, I write and have written every day since forever. Writing is also my job. The writing is actually quite alright. I’m more upset about the storytelling mode. I’m just staring into a void.

I wonder how long it will take to come back.

I may try some small challenges that I heard in a couple of books I’ve been reading. You’ll hear it when you’ll hear it!

Published by Robin Heinen

Father of two | Husband | Entomologist and Ecologist | Postdoctoral Researcher @ TUM | Traveler | Coffee Addict

2 thoughts on “It’s all gone!

  1. Perhaps you should let the muscle relax and write when you have fun. I have taken six months breaks from blogging and came back when I truly missed it and wanted to write. When you lay in bed at night and ideas for blog posts come to your mind, that’s when you know you will enjoy it. Don’t ever look at it as a task. There are no rules. This is your blog and you design your online space the way you want it.

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    1. Oh, but I am having fun 😊. I always enjoy the writing, even when it’s rubbish coming out. It’s just so weird how quickly you forget the process. I missed it a lot. The only difference now is that I somehow feel restrained in my freedom to write whatever comes up. The full story for that is for another day.

      You are right about that it should not feel like a task, but the wayy mind works is that it will find fifty other tasks, if I don’t make this one of them. It’s the same with other (enjoyable) things. I like too many things, so that it almost becomes limiting…

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